Friday, December 16, 2005

Making a list, checking it twice...

As the New Year fast approaches, I often catch myself undergoing brief moments of self-evaluation. What is it about me that makes me me? And should I be ok with those things, or really reach deep down and make an effort to change them? Here are some of the questions that have been running through my mind:

Is it bad that my daughter came home from school with a wrapped handmade gift which I automatically assumed was the inevitable "mom" present, and when I went to sentimentally place it under the tree with eyes brimming, she said, "Hey, that's a picture frame I made with a picture of me in it, and I'm giving it to my friend Jenna!"?

Is it bad that I have never sent out a Christmas card/letter, and I might never send one out?

Is it bad that I made a renewed effort to start exercising again, went running around my neighborhood twice, then swore it off? (In my defense, it was pretty bad timing to pick up outdoor running in mid-November.)

Is it bad that sometimes when someone in my family is talking to me, I am just thinking about the plot of Alias, and where could they possibly be hiding Vaughn, and how is Irina connected?

Is it bad that I want "Soft A Blossom Falls" played and/or sung at my funeral? I just love the song--I'm not trying to make a statement about my physical appearance.

Is it bad that I think about funerals and people dying, hoping to avoid such tragedy by doing so?

Is it bad that Mila's teacher had to lecture me on how Mila probably shouldn't be eating the school snow because there are two different kinds of chemicals on the ground?

Is it bad that everyone in my ward's favorite hobbies are scrapbooking, cooking, and exercise, and mine are Tivoing, acting, and eating?

Is it bad that my family is well aware and publicly documents that my favorite hobby is eating? (http://www.cannonbaheclan.blogspot.com/)

Is it bad that I want people to go visit the above blog because it's all about me, and I'm starved for attention? (At least I'm honest.)

Is it bad that as I'm writing this blog, I'm arguing with Mila about how writing this is much more important than playing Polly Pockets with her?

And last of all...

Is it bad that it's December 16 and I'm on Mosiah 7?

15 comments:

Jenny said...

Mosiah 7? It's looking bleak.

Shawn said...

If it makes you feel better, we just got to 2 Nephi...

...and now I am always going to wonder if you are listening to me when I am talking to you...

(sigh)...but then again...I'm rather used to it...

And no...its not wrong for all your foibles...I find them adorable and I love you dearly anyway...

Besides...look at the wacko you have for a mother...refer to my blog: www.swaneesinger.blogspot.com

Shawn said...

...and speaking of blogs...when ARE you going to comment on mine again? (hint,hint)

Brinna said...

Well, Hailey... I'm pretty much the same way (except that whole having children thing)...

And I will come back and haunt everyone after I die if "Soft a Blossom Falls" is not sung at my funeral...

I promise someone will sing it at yours... And mom wants the song from Gallipoli... (or is it the song from Platoon?) Whoops...

Daddy Dave said...

No, Hailey, none of it's bad. speaking for myself, I love you the way you are, I wouldn't change a thing about you, and if you don't want to follow the prophet that's your choice ---ha, ha ha!!!!! just kidding! Anyway, your life is scripture!

Daddy Dave said...

I need someone to sing "Soft a Blossom Falls" for me 'cause I have never heard the dang thing. By the way, I want "Gealic Blessing" and "Draw Near Unto Me" sung at my funeral and you'd better get busy learning those songs becasue I'll need them long before you!!

lisa v. clark said...

Hailey, I have found a true friend in you. Tivo, acting, eating, not wanting to play PollyPockets. . . thinking about Alias (I think I"ve got it figured out! more later--). Mosiah 7's looking pretty good to me, anyway. . . good luck my dear, dear friend!

erin said...

I wish I could act! You're so talented... and, Tivoing is much more exciting then cooking. :)

becky baird said...

Oh my gosh...Mosiah 7? You got past the Isaiah chapters, you're smooth sailin'! Miss you.

Miss Five said...

Hailey -
Your blog has given me hope. And it makes me laugh. Have a very happy Christmas!

Michelle Walker said...

So THIS is what bloggin is! This is your estranged step sister Michelle. It feels odd to be a "step sister." Would you say I'm more of a Dresella or an Anastasia? Or maybe since you're MY step sister too, I'm the true Cinderella. No, you're definately the sweet Cinderella of our family! By the way, where can I get an awesome model shot to put by my blogging responses? Love you, hope you had a great Christmas!

aunt heather said...

Hailey,

I loved everything you said. Though now that I do live in AZ, I really don't miss the snow and never will. I will take the heat anyday and the nice warm winters. Toni would eat the snow too and I just always told her not to eat the black or yellow colored snow. I feel the same way about the hobby thing, you will never catch me scrapbooking. You will always catch me playing playstation 2, poker or just watching TV. Im boring. It was so good to see you and the kids. Come back and visit again. I want to see pics of your house. Grandma says it is really beautiful

Hailey said...

Yay! Merry Christmas to me! I love you all!

Jenny- What's up, girl? Are you so excited to spend the entire month of January and February together?

Mom- I always listen to you--I was referring mainly to my children because, let's face it, Alias is more interesting than Barbie and the Magic Pegasus!

Lisa- You are my hero!

Becky- I miss you too!!

Miss Five- I only wish I could hear you when you're laughing--now that would be a holiday treat!

Michelle- I think our princess days might be over, but can you believe the "uber-princesses" we gave birth to? I really missed watching a song and dance from Isabelle this Christmas! Love you too, can't wait for you to come and visit!

Heather- I am a secret Playstation addict, but I don't allow myself to have one because NOTHING would get done. Thanks for stopping by!

Happy New Year!

Hailey said...

Oh and Michelle, you have to talk to Brin about the hot pics--she's some sort of computer geekess. I'm in line for one, that's for sure...

Brinna said...

Send me some pictures then!

(And Maryn's the real computer geekess... Little miss HTML... I just fake most of my blog)